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Tuesday, 07 October 2008
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R.I.P
My boyfriend's dog, Bandit, had to be put to sleep yesterday.
He had Bandit since he was five years old, so they basically grew up together.
I came to love him after 2 1/2 years of Josh&I going out.
He was a sweet, adorable dog. He looked like a furry seal. He was blind and partially deaf for quite some time but he always seemed to put a smile on Josh's face. He had an adorable nickname for him, "Dingy" pronounced dinnie pretty much.
I know how it feels to lose a pet. I loved one of my aunt's dogs, Lincoln, and was there all throughout his life. A couple months before he had to be put to sleep, I didn't see him as much. Then when he was gone, you can't get that time back. I guess you take advantage of the time and you think they will always be around, but when you least expect it things happen and you can't change it.
I do feel somewhat guilty because Josh was hanging out with me and he could have been spending time with Bandit instead.
It's been over a year since Lincoln passed, and I still regret not spending more time with him.
I'm going to help Josh get through this with every fiber of my being that's for sure.
R.I.P. Bandit
we'll miss you(Below-Josh and Bandit)
(Right-me and Lincoln, hours before he was put down)
Friday, 03 October 2008
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Poetry
One of my hobbies include writing poetry, and it really has helped me through hard times. I feel some sort of release when I rant and vent about my feelings that almost overwhelm me. I'd like to share some.
Stuck in Concrete
It's pouring now
surrounding me
beginning to harden
don't want it to be
up to my waist
grabbing on tight
It doesn't seem to matter
how hard I fight
It holds it's grip
and I'm there to stay
alone in this pool
of unmerciful grey.Description:
I got inspiration writing this because lately, I feel like
a part of me has been depressed due to not just one reason.
I've been very pessimistic by feeling like I can
never snap out of it. As much as I want to, it doesn't
seem to sweat.
Fortunately, I believe this poem has helped me and I am that
much closer to feeling better.
Keep me breathing
Laying next to you at night
gives me the feeling that
things are right
The smile that comes when
you hold me tight
Lasts in my mind when
you are out of sight.
Stay around and keep me breathing
When times are tough and when
I'm seeing what
Love is about
Life can take any route
Mine's to you.Description:
This is actually the beginning of a song, and it's
about my boyfriend, who I've been with for more
than 2 1/2 years. He is one of the few people that
keep me sane and who I can lean on no matter
what. I plan on finishing this and singing it to him
on our 3rd anniversary(Dec.16th!)
Now you remember the life you left behind
Untitled
Too drunk to remember you had a life
Too drunk to realize you had a wife
Too drunk to remember you had 2 little girls
Too drunk to realize you had the world
Too drunk to realize your world crashed down
Too drunk to remember you fell to the ground
Too drunk to hear the sirens all around
Too drunk to realize you were to blame
Too drunk to even remember your name.
For those drinks that helped you unwind
Now you realize it wasn't worth one drink
To watch your life wash down the sink.
From now on, think.
Description:
This poem is about my "father." He hasn't
been in my life since I was a toddler, and
the only way I know what he looks like is
because of photographs. Supposedly, he
was an alcoholic and the last straw for my
mom was when he decided to drink&drive
and crashed-which paralyzed him.
Not having a main father figure in my life
has always been a struggle, but I believe
this poem has taken weight off my shoulders
that has been there for a long time.
I realize I have great people in my life and
if I have children some day, I will be the best
mother I can be, without thinking about my dad's
mistakes.What is Love?
Love is everything. Love is a time thief. Love is molasses.
Love is finding a pair of jeans that fit perfectly.
Love is the rainbow after a thunderstorm.
Love is not peaches and cream all the time.
Love is not casual. Love is not a house broken pet.
Love is not one sided. Love is not ropes and chains.
Love is not forced. Love is not a raunchy rap video
and a one night stand. Love is not money and what
kind of car someone drives.
Love is not easy. Love is all emotions from excitement
and happiness to doubts, anger and tears. Love can give
you butterflies and shortness of breath. Love is worth all the
hassle and not worth losing.
Description:
This was an assignment for one of
my english classes, basically picking
either love/hate or greed, and saying
what it is and isn't and being creative
with it. I really like it.I'll add more as time goes on. Hope you enjoy :)
Leave comments if you'd like.
Sunday, 28 September 2008
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Hey everyone, it's been awhile since I've used xanga but figured I need a place to rant-lol.
Ph0toj3nic4
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- Name: Jennifer
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 9/28/2008
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Hey, my name is Jenny and I am 20 years old.
